Yes. It will leave a deep mark inside me for a lifetime... time will heal.. insyaAllah. But still it wont be d same.. What u did, u get back. Yes i do give an apologize cz ppl do mistakes.. but, as i said.. it will leave a deep mark for me, as long as i live..until i die. I wont ever forget what hd happened...... May Allah help me in healing n struggling out of it.. InsyaAllah.